I’ve been busy trying to catch up on holiday shopping and housework lately, doing iStock photos, and putting up a few Christmas decorations. But I’m not really in the mood to put up the Christmas tree this year, it’s a big one because we have a high ceiling in the family room. Mr. bookbabie seems a little bummed about that idea however. I don’t think it’s a ba-humbug Scrooge kind of thing with me or depression because my mom is gone. I just think I’m worn out and putting up the tree feels like one more chore to do.
The last months of my mom’s life were pretty intense, then she died (also an intense, emotionally charged experience), and then I went right into planning mode for her memorial party. And now it’s the holidays. It seems like I could use some downtime to process this past year. My mom’s illness and death. My son and daughter-in-law losing the baby. I don’t know. Then again, maybe processing/dwelling on what’s happened isn’t really necessary. I don’t want to get stuck in that woe-is-me place where melancholy and gloom rule the day.
Hmm, okay Mr. bookbabie, we’ll put on some holiday music, light a fire in the fireplace, and put up your giant Christmas tree this weekend. Because through all the sadness and the loss of late you’ve been there by my side and for that I am truly grateful. Your love gave me a soft place to land during this most difficult year, so yes, you shall indeed have your tree my dear.
No longer forward nor behind
I look in hope or fear;
But, grateful, take the good I find,
The best of now and here. ~John Greenleaf Whittier
The holidays are feeling pretty tough around here this year too but after I got the tree up I felt a bit better about it.
Maybe you could write down some holiday memories or just how you are feeling and put them in an ornament for the tree…kind of give them up to God.
Great photo! WOW!
I hope the music, the lit fireplace and the tree lift your spirits!
peace on earth to you and your tired heart, and mr. bb too!
shocked to see my old friend mr greenleaf w on your blog…
Great processing. I think you made a wise choice. I know Mr. Bookbabie will be in a better mood. Pappy
Beautiful photo. Put up the tree…it is a chore but once it is done it will probably lift your spirits. Have fun too!
I’m sorry to hear about your loss.
I agree with Laura, beautiful photo. And I love the snow, haven’t visited your blog in a while so didn’t see it until now.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
Hi! great photography done by you. Nice blog. Keep up the nice work.
HAPPY HOLiDAYS TO YOU…