september dreams

When I first heard Josh Groban and Charlotte Church sing that song at the closing ceremonies of the Winter Olympics in Salt Lake City it brought tears to my eyes. Not because it was such a beautiful song, which I think it is, but because it was just after 9/11 and as I watched that moving production, in my minds eye I could also see the twin towers falling. The contrast between such beauty and such grief was simply overwhelming. I find myself overwhelmed once again today by these contrasting emotions because my son and our daughter-in-law are no longer expecting their first baby in September.

After a difficult year with my mom’s continued illness and financial worries at our small business, the news that we were going to become first time grandparents brought my husband and me much joy. Unfortunately, with the possibility of great joy comes the possibility of great sorrow. When you go through tough times you tend to grab on to that one ray of bright light and hold on for dear life and when that light goes out you fall fast and you fall hard and boy does the landing hurt. But most of all we hurt for our son and his wife. Before they even had the opportunity to know the joy of holding their first baby in their arms, they have had to face the pain of letting go, of saying goodbye to their sweet September dreams. Our hearts are broken. Yet surprisingly, rising up from this sea of grief my husband and I have found a new light, a new blessing to be grateful for as we witnessed a loving young couple grow stronger in spirit and closer together during some very dark days. We are so proud of them, we feel honored to be their parents and we now know more than ever what wonderful parents they will be someday.

10 thoughts on “september dreams

  1. I’m reading this post and so many different emotions are happening inside of me right now. I’m so sorry for your son and his wife. Please give them an extra hug for me. You are also right that they will be stronger as a couple and they will be able to feel joy again, I’m sure of it.

    In the book I’m reading there is an Italian phrase that this made me think of. . . “L’ho provato sulla mia pelle” or “I have been there”.

    I feel your grief and I hope for all of you to feel peace very soon.

    Love, K

  2. OMG, what a heartbreak. I am so sorry for all of you. I don’t know what else to say… God bless you and your family.

  3. Oh bookbabie, I am so sorry, what a great loss for your whole family. Take time, enjoy wildflowers and let your sadness breathe. Warm thoughts to you all from here.

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